Only Look At You

I looked at you all day
But you looked somewhere else
Even when I always see you, I always miss you
My person, what kind of person are you?
How do I look to you?
Are you curious about me too?
When I’m unconsiously lost in thoughts of you
I blankly float up your face
Look at me just once if you feel my heart
Even if it’s just once, I want to know your heart
But if you will stay by my side
Even if you don’t say it, I’ll know with my heart
I hope you will be there only for me
For me, who only looks at you
No matter how much it hurts, the thing that’ll never change
Is that my heart that only goes toward you
Only looks at you, only looks at you

My Wishes

My wishes 

#  Polaroid camera

# Galaxy grand / any possible smartphone would do

#  Teddy bear yg besar giler gedabak  - da dapat ganti dr boo

#  Killer high heels

#  Fully white baju kurung with lace

#  Going to BAP concert @ fanmeeting  / visit south korea (Namsan Tower)

#  Mp3 player + earphone

#  Jacket

#  A simple date + couple tee - done this with boo ( rindu daa :'( )

#  1 tera harddisk, yg dulu da rosak tskk tskk - boo da bg pendrive. hikss

#  Matoki light stick

 

7-9 Oktober 2016

         meeting for the first time after few years feels like a dream. ingatkan akan nervous nak mati bile jumpe but weirdly tak pon. awal2 tu je la. despite being giddy, it feels safer macam tak rase awkward takut ke ape pon. hewhew...
        aura boonciyt iolss pon ala2 da matang. tak mcm bdk2 umk ni. len rupenye org blaja ngn org yg da expose ngn alam keje ni. huwaaa... cmne nk jd matured? -..-
        byk mende senanye ase tsentuh gitu tp bialah. nak simpan sorang. wekss.. ntah bile la plk dpt jmpe balik. sobsobsob...
        ase mcm kosong giler balik umk. tdo pon tmimpi2 lagi. tu la mase jumpe xrase pon. lps balik tu fuhh.. amekau. 

i might not saying this enough

I LEBIU BOO <3

lewls

in case ade anak nanti, mohon perangai xmcm ziqah. lau boleh nak mcm ni:

boleh tak?? :P

I

takde salah sape2. be happy. banyak mende lagi nak kene pikir.

tak dekan sem ni pon xpe. dua kali da kan. :)

me

just now my mum came and told me that she regretted her decision which was not allowing me to pursue my study in UIA 3 years ago. *sigh...

if i want to talk about regrets, there's so much thing that come across my mind. firstly, of course for rejecting UIA and matriculation. then, for not doing well in the interview for tesl in australia and i did not even do my appeal . third, for rejecting medicmesir placement in tanta university in medicine.

3 years ago, everything seems dark and i did not even have any motivation to study. i almost went to form 6 in sultan ismail college. however, i appealed for palam and fortunately i was accepted even though i am almost 1 month late than ordinary students. so i didn't have to go through orientation week. how lucky i am. huhu.. just imagine how i need to adapt with the surrounding and tbh i can't.
so, that's the first time i just let go everything and fully enjoyed my time. i didn't do my assignment, quizzes as well as midterm. i just lose my path.

just imagine, i got uia. my first choice which was foundation of allied science. sains kesihatan bsekutu. kalau lepas asasi, bleh smbg sme ade lam xray, mata or radiologi. aim aq haruslaa radiologi. tp nye sebab parent xbg. katenye jd cikgu duk umah, rilek. weekend cuti. so bile dpt palam. u know. repeating the same thing mcm spm and deeper. padahal lau asasi uia dgrnye aq da bleh lari dr math. lagipon dgn basic arab yg aq ade n sijil arab dr kuiz, aq takyah amek exam da kat uia and foundation aq just for 1 year. deep in my heart, mmg aq nak duk uia, belajar ilmu dunia wal akhirah. ceh. kalau dgn keadaan aq skg, boleh dikatekan agak sengal la. ye la. xmuslimah mne. tp dulu zmn skolah kan baik yg amat. g palam je. senget sket.

but fate didn't bring me there. first day i went to palam, i cried. bukan sebab homesick tp sebab i felt hopeless. sebabnye mmg aq nak sgt uia. setiap hari mcm xbmkne pape. just my body was there but my mind? blank. in short, boleh dikatekan tsasar jugak lah tp xde lah smpai tggal solat tu semua. just social life. xingt dunia bgaul, bjalan je keje. mmg xde niat nk blaja. teruk betul.

i still remember the nervousness that i felt when waiting for my foundation cgpa. mase tu myesal tayah cite la. but i promised myself to work harder during degree. luckily, dekat degree alhamdulillah antare yg tbaik lm kelas. glad to know that i got the highest pngs for the 4th sem. bayangkan dgn chinese n indian lam kelas. selalunye bdk cine tu yg fes. tp nseb bek kali ni. mnx2 momentum cmni kekal la.

kalau tanye ape yg motivate aq is kate2 cikgu nazri time kat shah dulu. aq ingt lagi die ajar sains time form 3. dulu lower form perform la jugak. nek upperform hancus. time f3 dulu, aq slalu dpt a subjek die. tp ade skali dpt b. 70 something cmtu. pastu die comfort aq ckp ' xpe la jatuh. tp sy tahu org mcm awk jatuh skali je. pastu, bleh bgun balik'. indeed, exam selepas tu, da xturun2 da.

stail aq, kalau aq nak, aq akan usaha abes boleh. tp kdg2 aq xusaha pon aq dpt. tu aq fikir just berkat n barakah or just nseb bek. kadang2 kite buat baik dgn org, kite xingt pon kite buat ape. tp org yg kite buat baik tu kdg2 doakan kite. tu yg jd berkat. same mcm kalau kite ade rezeki lebih, kongsi la dgn org lain. bsedekah xkn buat kite miskin. sebab tu, i can't cope with people yg kedekut. haha..

failure is key to success. dulu time dgr aq pikir boleh laa ckp cmtu sebab da bjaye. tp senanye, org yg bjaye ialah org yg bgun balik dr failure die tu. doakan yang baik2 untuk aku tau. kbai

3+1

ni program 3+1 yg u buat utk student yg dpt 3 pointer ke atas. memandangkan social n communication skill aq ni bknnye terer mane, so aq putuskan xnk join. sebenarnye lau pikir balik, byk jugak pekdahnye. bleh get outside dr kelantan ni pastu experience lg. dekat sikit dgn ksygn kite. haha..  tp malang nye aq xrajin la. nak present tiap2 mggu. even present depan kls pon da tcungap2. ni nak present depan org2 industri. lembik la.. haha..

lgpon aq ni bknnye genius mane. dekan baru 2 kali. tu pon naseb bek je. huhu.. ni xtahu la. ngn semua bende kelaut, xtahu la aq. dgn fyp lg. da la kos aq bknnye jenis yg mudah. at first aq ingt nk buat survey je, skali xtahu cmne bleh tlepas ke menanam kat ladang. sadis2.. cik abg duk lm aircond. kite plak yg bpanas nye.

semoga hari2 mndatang, fiza akan btambah rajin. :)

good luck exam untuk wajah kesayangan hamba ;*

try tgok link ni http://shidasyakirin.blogspot.my/2014/11/kad-kahwin-fiza-akid.html

bila kita kawen syg? hahaha...

good luck exam esok. awak kan hebat. tayah stadi xpe. bace gitu2 je. ksygn kite terer sgt da.

Love yourself...

All the times that you rain on my parade
And all the clubs you get in using my name
You think you broke my heart
Ohhh girl for goodness sake
You think I'm crying
Oh my ohhh, well I ain't!

And I didn't wanna write a song
'Cause I didn't want anyone thinking I still care, I don't
But, you still hit my phone up
And baby I be moving on

And I think you should be somethin' I don't wanna hold back
Maybe you should know that
My mama don't like you and she like's everyone
And I never like to admit that I was wrong
And I've been so caught up in my job
Didn't see what's going on
But now I know
I'm better sleeping on my own


'Cause if you like the way you look that much
Ohhhh baby you should go and love yourself
And if you think that I'm still holdin' on to somethin'
You should go and love yourself

When you told me that you hated my friends
The only problem was with you and not them
And every time you told me my opinion was wrong
And tried to make me forget where I came from

And I didn't wanna write a song
Cause I didn't want anyone thinking I still care, I don't
But, you still hit my phone up
And baby I be moving on
And I think you should be somethin' I don't wanna hold back
Maybe you should know that
My mama don't like you and she like's everyone
And I never like to admit that I was wrong
And I've been so caught up in my job, didn't see what's going on
And now I know, I'm better sleeping on my own

'Cause if you like the way you look that much
Oh baby you should go and love yourself
And if you think that I'm still holdin' on to somethin'
You should go and love yourself

For all the times that you made me feel small
I fell in love now I fear nothin' at all
I never felt so low when I was vulnerable
Was I a fool to let you break down my walls?

'Cause if you like the way you look that much
Ohhhh baby you should go and love yourself
And if you think that I'm still holdin' on to somethin'
You should go and love yourself

'Cause if you like the way you look that much
Ohhhh baby you should go and love yourself
And if you think that I'm still holdin' on to somethin'
You should go and love yourself

and it's going to be a tough and a long way to go. but hey.. let's enjoy every single moment that we still have. it might be a little bit hard but it ain't easy either. the road that we take, i'll make you worth it. smile :)

wajah kesayangan hamba :*

sebab slalu buat perangai xmatang n merengek xtentu pasal, sy mnx ampun. pkwe bz duk hospital, awek duk mgamuk craving attention. haha... naseb la. #awekclingy. kesian pakwe saya dapat awek clingy nak mati. tiap masa tanye ' awk syg saya ke tak'. payah la awek insecure cmni. mohon bertabah yer cik abang. hati kene sado. minx clash tu sokmo doh. sakit jantung sokmo la pkwe kite ni. sayang awak. gaduh mcm mane pon syg jugak. xkire la. nak syg jugak. paling lawak bile sy nak cite psl laki len, xbagi. takut jeles katenye. so, mohon syg sy lebeyh. awek awk ni hotstuff (agkat bakul sket).. haha..

p/s: boo, mohon buat esaimen sy tu yer. lebiu :* haha.. #acah2lecturer